Wednesday, March 25, 2015
I knew it was spring in New England when I walked by the Dunkin' Donuts closest to my work and they had the front door propped open with a chair. When we lived in Baltimore I loved the mid-Atlantic spring, so soft and warm. New England spring is thin and chilly with a stiff breeze to remind me that I've lost my hat. LB loves to look out the windows of our new apartment and track the slow disappearance of the snow in the park across the street and the slower reappearance of people in the park. Last night, LB was at her other home, but I listened to some raucous basketball at dusk.
We made this spring tree with dyed eggs and painted paper cranes. The drugstore didn't have a regular egg kit with the little dye buttons, so I had to get a terrible one with dye pouches, and then mostly used food coloring because the pouches were terrible. But we got it done, and in the pictures you can't see that the eggs are attached to the strings with scotch tape-that is some kind of metaphor for our lives.
Things are okay here. We like the new house, and it's slowly coming together although I'm worn out from my first burst of energy. LB seems to be working through the transition with elaborate pretend games drawn from Frozen. But I feel sad. Now I have space for all the loss to settle and pool. And as much as I don't want to feel sad, and sad isn't really my emotion, this seems like where I need to be.