Sunday, March 29, 2015
Wednesday, March 25, 2015
I knew it was spring in New England when I walked by the Dunkin' Donuts closest to my work and they had the front door propped open with a chair. When we lived in Baltimore I loved the mid-Atlantic spring, so soft and warm. New England spring is thin and chilly with a stiff breeze to remind me that I've lost my hat. LB loves to look out the windows of our new apartment and track the slow disappearance of the snow in the park across the street and the slower reappearance of people in the park. Last night, LB was at her other home, but I listened to some raucous basketball at dusk.
We made this spring tree with dyed eggs and painted paper cranes. The drugstore didn't have a regular egg kit with the little dye buttons, so I had to get a terrible one with dye pouches, and then mostly used food coloring because the pouches were terrible. But we got it done, and in the pictures you can't see that the eggs are attached to the strings with scotch tape-that is some kind of metaphor for our lives.
Things are okay here. We like the new house, and it's slowly coming together although I'm worn out from my first burst of energy. LB seems to be working through the transition with elaborate pretend games drawn from Frozen. But I feel sad. Now I have space for all the loss to settle and pool. And as much as I don't want to feel sad, and sad isn't really my emotion, this seems like where I need to be.
Sunday, March 15, 2015
We have something resembling a new home. With thanks to family and friends and coworkers and even B. I got a special bloggy surprise in the mail that is going straight on the fridge. My parent stocked my pantry and fridge straight out of 1935. They are almost boomers, born in 1945, and despite their countercultural years, it shows. They will show up for their daughter's divorce with 20lbs of flour, 10lbs of rice, canned corn, and laundry soap. I love it.
Tuesday, March 10, 2015
As spring creeps in this is the last slog of black ice and dirty snow. I've been keeping myself too busy, which has had definite highlights, but I found myself at 7:00am the morning after spring forward, inching along an icy sidewalk on the way to a work engagement in Pawtucket and, despite the pink sunrise, it felt very lenten. I have the keys to a new apartment. The landlord assures me he has changed the battery in the squeaking fire alarm. I've done a good amount of cleaning, and need to do even more painting. And, right now, I'm lying flat on my back, wracked with body aches, chilled and nose running, wondering how it will all get done. But it must get done, it will get done, and spring will be here again.